Another Moment to Breathe

Hey Blog, it's been a while. I moved to a new place, started a new job, and have generally just been growing up. 'Adulting' as they say. But I recently was reminded of this blog, a place to slow down and reflect amidst all the industrial noise of my environment. Let's dive into a few things that are on my spirit: Adulting

Adulting, to me, has always been defined by paying bills, complaining, losing one's range of motion, and generally just transitioning into being old. Recently I was able to reshape this definition so that it could better fit my present moment. Adulting doesn't have to be some conveyor belt of worries and unpleasant weekdays. I'm 23 years of age. Every day that I wake up and breathe, I'm an adult. Anything that I choose to do at this age is adulting, whether it's a mature decision or a childish one. I get to CHOOSE what adulting looks like to me. This is a huge realization that helped me to feel more confident in my decision-making. More confident in my own skin and my new-age approaches to my life.

Self-Love

This is a topic that I haven't shown enough attention to. As a human, I need this to fuel my daily actions. I previously thought of it as a trendy topic that I could use as an excuse to take it easy on myself here and there. But it's actually a protocol. And it's not just a trend. I was blessed to come across a sermon by Dr. Myles Munroe that allowed me to see Self-Love in its full scope. I'll be using this blog to explore this topic in more depth over the next few weeks. Secret Place

In one of my previous blog posts, I spoke about the importance of having a Secret Place. But lately, I haven't been utilizing mine. I pinpointed the reason that I've been avoiding it. Disbelief. As someone with a complicated childhood that I haven't sorted through, there are still some seeds of disbelief in my psyche. This causes me to avoid the Secret Place sometimes because if I don't feel valuable enough to be loved, why would I spend time alone as if God loves me and cares about me. It's harsh, but it's the truth. I've been slowing down to really address this thorn in my life. I haven't fundamentally accepted the way that God has designed me. I haven't fully submitted my skepticism of why he designed my path the way he did. I still don't understand some of the things that I've gone through and why I had to go through them. That's why there is no greater time to drop my mask and dig deeper into the Self that I've been hiding for so long. I am super grateful that this blog was brought back to my attention because it provides me a space to document my reflection. I am posting this because there is no growth in hiding. Growth lies within embracing the truth. I know I'm not the only person on Earth that isn't perfect. But there are many of us that pretend that everything is perfect for the sake of aesthetic and comfort. I'm more into the discomfort of being myself. The discomfort that allows me to shine through in the ways that I am meant to. Thanks for reading.

-lani khristopher 11.24.2025